Faith For Each Step
It’s not until it’s tested that we realize its importance. Our gratitude for something is heightened when we are afraid to lose it. Our need for God is great when all seems to be crashing down.
I’ve been in a season of much unknown lately. Unknown directions and frequent changes/logistics have made my anxiety rear its ugly head. Lack of control and having to trust have been hard. I don’t do well when I feel frazzled. It’s so easy for my mind to take a “what-if” and run like a bear is chasing it. Reeling myself in is exhausting.
In chaotic seasons, it’s easy for faith to plummet, or at least for me it has been. I’ve found myself sobbing in the shower more than once. Begging for God’s sovereign hand. Begging for His direction and begging for His peace.
All are things we thrive on. Nothing is impossible for God. I’m thankful that is the kind of God we serve. He already knows everything we could ever face in life, and He already knows how to answer all of the prayers that we could ever pray.
As I’ve found myself submitting to God’s leading, He’s done nothing but provide. There’s been evidence all along the way of His absolute goodness. His mercies have been new every morning. Truly, He is and has been faithful.
Don’t get me wrong, everything isn’t perfect. I haven’t been handed everything I’ve wanted in this life. Not all of my circumstances have been easy, nor worked out exactly as I wanted. But God is still faithful. He is providing just what I need for each moment. And that’s where my prayers have changed. My perspective has changed. I’m asking for strength and peace for moments. Little by little to get me through. And it always suffices. God always provides what I need, even if I don’t think it’s what I want.
I've learned not to be afraid of my future. I’m trying daily to continue to relinquish control to the One who already knows best. I heard in a Passion City Church podcast recently, “When you know who holds the Throne, you won’t fear the fire.” I’m reminding myself daily, moment to moment, who sits on the Throne. Reminding myself that He is sovereign and always faithful. I’m relying on enough faith for each step. Walking together is better anyways.
Colossians 3:23-25
Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. Remember that the Lord will give you an inheritance as your reward, and that the Master you are serving is Christ. But if you do what is wrong, you will be paid back for the wrong you have done. For God has no favorites.
